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  • Merging Discords

    Just and FYI, I’ll be merging my Survey Discord server into my Publishing Heretics Discord server. I’m primarily doing this for my own ease-of-use reasons. I mean, I am active in a number of Discords, several of which I actually run, so, yeah. It’s easier this way.

    You’re more than welcome to join the Publishing Heretics server, as there will be a special role and category just for the Survey books!

    Thanks for your support and understanding!

  • This is a Test. (TikTok)

    Video by me. Music by Mage of Machines.

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  • February/March Newsletter: Crossroads and Is It Getting Hot in Here?

    It’s March in Florida, which means it’s starting to get in to the Yucky-Hots instead of the Merely-Warms. What that means for me is that I hide in the AC unless we are going out somewhere or going swimming. 

    The editing work on the next 3 novels is moving apace. Nemetona and Control are out with my proofreader, which means we’ll shortly be working on formatting and cover art. Hopefully, in the next newsletter, I might have some release dates for you. Zeno’s Quicksand needed some extra attention, and is back with the Wife and my Mom for another read through after I did another major edit pass. I wasn’t feeling sure about it a few weeks ago, but with this most recent pass, I feel like it’s a complete novel now. 

    With all those Survey books in my editing pipeline at the moment, I’m at a bit of a crossroads. Do I start on more Survey novels? Do I start on a sub-series in the same universe? Do I work on The Hermit? Do I just take some time off writing? I wasn’t really sure the last week or two, but now I’m getting some ideas for The Hermit again, so I’ll start writing on that for a while and see where it goes. There’s a bunch of scenes that weren’t quite short stories that I’ve written over the years that seem to be scenes that could fit into this novel. It’s definitely going in a much darker direction that the Survey novels…

    Or, well, that’s where my mind’s going with it today. We’ll see where it ends up! 

    In other news, the audio version of Colony on Tales from Flat Space is 4 weeks away from being complete! Come listen to me read on Fridays at 8 pm Eastern on my Twitch stream, or wait until the edited version comes out. As always, if you click the cover for Colony on the Book page, you’ll find a player there that you can use to catch up. Otherwise, add Tales from Flat Space to your podcasts on your favorite podcatcher!

    Lastly, all of my Irish visa documents have been collated, stamped, approved, etc, and we should be putting in the final application within the next week or so. Once it’s in, it’ll be approximately 4-6 months before I receive an answer. Good luck vibes still greatly appreciated!

    Blessed Ramadan, Blessed Equinox, and Happy Easter for those who celebrate!

  • January Updates: Happy New Year and Unity is now complete on Tales from Flat Space!

    We had a quiet Christmas and New Year’s here in Florida. It’s even been cold enough here to warrant wearing a sweatshirt more than once!

    The biggest book news is that my editor came back with my edits for book #6, Control and now that’s ready to head to my proofreader! Still have a little bit left to write on book #7, Zeno’s Quicksand, and then I can finally send that off to my editor. Hopefully, I’ll get 3 new books out this year!

    And, of course, a couple of weeks ago, I started book #8, which will be a book focused on Heph and a character introduced in Colony.

    The other good news is that I’ve finished the podcast readings for Unity! I’m doing the live podcast readings again on Twitch every Friday at 8 pm Eastern, sometimes followed by an hour or so of Elder Scrolls Online. Tales from Flat Space is on every major podcast platform, so if you prefer audio books, go and subscribe, especially now that I’ve started Colony!

    And, if you appreciate and enjoy the podcast, feel free to send a little cash for them my way through my Ko-fi page!

    Last week was my birthday, and my family spoiled me rotten, which was super awesome! Got some lovely goodies, too, including a basket full of fidget toys (which you’ll see on stream a lot), and some spiritual goodies from a witchy store that my Mom took me too. Also had some yummy thai food and ice cream cake! 48 is pretty awesome so far!

    No big updates on when I’m heading for Ireland, except to say that pretty much all the paperwork is in. We’re waiting for a couple of government agencies to give us some papers we need. After that, it’s the big waiting game (approximately 4-6 months). Prayers for it to all go smoothly would be greatly appreciated!

    Hope you all have had a good January so far, and more book news should be forthcoming as we start doing the formatting and cover work for Nemetona

  • Something to think about around the #AI conversation…

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  • December Updates: Happy Holidays!

    Hello from sunny Florida. Or, well, sorta sunny, anyway. It’s been cloudy most of this week, and we’re getting a lot of rain this weekend. The cooler weather here has been a good time to finally catch up with my podcast (aka abridged audiobooks): Tales from Flat Space. I posted chapters 25-28 of Unity today, and I’m hoping to have up to chapter 40 completed by Monday. Finishing these podcasts means that I’ll be reading on my Twitch channel again! Follow me on my socials for schedule updates. 

    I’ve also added podcast players for Survey, Unity, and The Four Keys on their respective pages. They should allow you to listen to the chapters in order, but let me know if you have any issues.

    I’d also like to invite you all to join me on Thursday, December 21 for my 1st annual online Yule vigil, starting at 7 pm Eastern US on my Twitch channel. I’ll be up until sunrise December 22nd (7:17 am) doing writing sprints, reading tarot cards, reading the next chapters of Unity, and giving away eBooks. Come join me any time during the night if you can!

    In closing, as this is the last update for 2023, I’d like to thank everyone for their support this year especially with the release of my first 4 books! I wish you all a very Happy Holidays, Blessed Yule, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year! I hope that however you spend this holiday season, you find some comfort, joy, and your favorite foods! (Because you gotta have your favorite foods this time of year, right? 🙂 )

  • November Updates: Hello there!

    Yes, I know it’s been a while since I’ve done a monthly update/newsletter thing, but, well, life happened and lots of change came with it… 

    The biggest change many of you already know: My Wife and I have left Switzerland and are in the process of moving to Ireland. The Wife is already there, setting up shop, as it were, because we’ve bought a house, which is both a house and what used to be an old shop! It’s a really cool house in a very tiny town in Ireland, and I’m really looking forward to being there as soon as I can get there!

    As for myself, I am currently staying at my parent’s house in Florida. My Dad was ill over the Summer, but is now recovering (thankfully!). I’m also waiting for my Irish visa to go through. I’m not sure exactly how long I’ll be here, and I miss The Wife terribly, but we’ll get through. For now, to keep busy, I’m doing my Twitch streams, getting some swimming in, and helping out my parents as I can.

    Book-wise, I’ve been really busy since the book launch in February. Amazingly enough, I ended up writing 3 more novels:

    Book #5, Nemetona, is a direct sequel to Unity, Colony, and Consortium. It’s about a smaller AI ship named Nemetona, who, like Loki, is a different kind of AI than her siblings, and the timelime overlaps with the previous books. This book has gone through the editing stages and soon it will be sent to my proofreader. My Awesome Wife will then be doing the formatting and cover for it again. I hope to have it out sometime in the first quarter of 2024.

    Book #6, Control, is actually set just after Survey and before Unity, so I guess technically it’s Book #1.5. This book is primarily Lulu’s backstory, but it also gives more insight into the Librarians of Sun Tzu and why the events in Unity happened the way they did. This book is still with my Wonderful Editor, and I hope to have it out sometime in the Summer, or early Fall of 2024. 

    Book #7, Zeno’s Quicksand, is mostly set 20 years after Nemetona, and follows the crew of Mercury on their journey to Andromeda. This book is still in the early editing phase, and will probably be out towards the end of 2024. 

    Actually, now that I think about it, I technically started 4 novels, because I recently stared the web serial called The Hermit, which is a kind of experiment in using a scifi novel to talk about my Spiritual Tradition and Theology. The first 7 chapters are posted, but I’m on a bit of a break for the moment. I’ll probably get back to it after the Holidays. Watch this space for release dates and new chapters!

    In other news, my Twitch stream time has changed to 7 to 9 PM US Eastern time Monday-Friday. Apologies to my European friends, but this schedule works best for me while I’m still in Florida. I’ll more than likely change it back to my regular time when I get to Ireland. You can follow me on Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr, and now TikTok to get the most up to date information and any changes in my Twitch schedule! You can also join my Discord servers!

    Happy Thanksgiving to all my US folks! I’m looking forward to Turkey Day this year, since I’ll technically be having two! (A chill day this Thursday, and then we have relatives coming in next week, so lucky me!) I hope you all have an excellent day and many tasty noms!

  • The Hermit: Spirits

    “The center of our sphere is here, and I denote it with the coordinates zero, zero, zero. For this working, it is the center of all things. It has a radius, r, that is large enough to contain this Shrine and our working. I denote this sphere as the circle, and will bless it with the elements.” I picked up the incense from the altar and walked clockwise around the circle with it. I did the same with the lit altar candle, lighting the candles on the pillars. I sprinkled water, then salt around the circle, then said, “I cast this circle and see it as a shell of bright blue energy. So mote it be.”

    Katy mumbled “So mote it be,” but Noise-Maker only watched, curiously. It had been a long afternoon and evening of explanations from them about Navigation and me making extensive notes and drawings to put it all together with my magical teachings. I hadn’t been sure if what I came up with would work, but once I said the final words of the casting, the circle I had made felt almost tangible, like a membrane. Noise-Maker moved their head back and forth, wide-eyed. In the circle, I could feel their feelings more intensely, and they were wary and confused, but still curious and, to my surprise, completely trustful of me. 

    I’d better start the banishing before we get Spirits we don’t want in here, returning my focus to the tasks at hand. I made a sphere with my hands and visualized a ball of fire in it. “There are no Gods, Spirits, or Demons within the sphere but Ourselves! So mote it be!” I spread my arms wide and released the ball of fire, pushing out any wayward spirits. When the sphere of fire expanded and met the sphere of blue fire it flared white in my mind’s eye, and suddenly the circle around us became utterly silent. Katy flinched and Noise-Maker curled in their legs as all the forest noises stopped. Nothing had really changed otherwise: the incense was still burning and the candles were still lit, but it was the first time in my life a magic circle had felt this solid and real. I had never cast a circle where it was so cut off from the rest of the world before, and it was exhilarating and terrifying all at once. If I knew the right things to do, I probably could Navigate the stars with this!  

    “Now what?” whispered Katy, pulling me out of my thoughts.

    I cleared my throat and said, “Well, now I call back in the Spirits we want to help us.”

    “Which ones?” the girl asked. 

    “I’m thinking tonight, I’ll call in the ones that I work with the most.” I picked up the small basket I had next to me by the fire. I pulled out the mandrake root, threw it into the fire, and said, “Hecate, I call on you to be with us tonight to help us protect Katy and Noise-Maker from those who would seek to do them harm.” I took out the cup of oats from the basket and tipped the oats into the fire. “Dagda, I call on you as my patron, to lend us your power and strength.” Lastly, I pulled out three pieces of candy and some tobacco, and threw those in the fire. “Papa Legba, I call on you to open the ways for us so that we can find the ways to protect Katy and get Noise-Maker home.”

    Yes, child, I’m here, but my, what a strange place you’ve created, said Papa Legba.

    You’ve been learning from the alien. I approve, said Hecate. 

    I’m here, Daughter, said The Dagda. He didn’t say anything about the circle, but He was looking around and testing the boundaries, which moved like a thin, plastic membrane at His touch. I grinned at His curiosity.

    Katy’s head swiveled around, as if she was hearing things. I let her be for the moment and said, “I also call in the Ancestors to protect Katy and to help Katy break her connection to the egregore of the city-state.” Katy focused on me again, and I pointed to the bowl with her hair clippings. 

    “What do I do?” she whispered. 

    “Throw the clippings in the fire and ask the Ancestors for their protection and help,” I said.

    She dumped the bowl over the fire and made sure to get every piece of hair out, then said, “Uh, Ancestors, please protect me from the city-state, the city-guard, and my parents. They want to force me to be a mother and I don’t want to be! And protect Noise-Maker, too, from them, too. They don’t deserve to be–” Katy froze, then dropped the bowl by her side.

    I looked with my inner eye and saw the deities and Ancestors we’d called in, but surrounding Katy were six aliens like Noise-Maker, looking extremely bewildered. 

    Papa Legba grinned. I told you they were coming. They are quite confused. You should probably explain–

    Before I could do or say anything else, Katy began talk in Noise-Maker’s language. Not in the halting way that she had done before with Noise-Makers name, but rapidly and fluently. The translator didn’t translate it, but when Katy stopped talking, Noise-Maker said, “How can this be?”

    “Who is talking to you?” I asked.

    Noise-Maker motioned with their arms in a way that I interpreted as confusion. “Katy is speaking as if they were one of my partners!” Their eyes were wide and I could feel their fear and confusion rise. “I don’t understand, Elizabeth!”

    I looked at Katy again, and she was still surround by the five beings, one of which had their appendage on her shoulder. ‘“That’s your family?” I whispered in surprise. Katy’s body was staring at Noise-Maker, but I couldn’t see Katy’s spirit. Shit. “Um, so, uh, some humans can talk for the spirits of the Dead. It seems that Katy has that gift. I don’t know how to explain how I can see them, but there are five beings that look similar to you standing around Katy. One of them has their arm on her.” 

    “How is this possible?” they asked. “They are very confused!”

    “Um. Well. I really don’t know how else to explain it, nor do I understand why my Spirits brought your family to talk to you.”

    “My people do not have this kind of ability. We–”

    Katy spoke again in Noise-Maker’s language. The translator only caught some of what she was saying: “Must… humans… child…”

    I moved over to sit next to Katy. “Noise-Maker, can you tell them to speak slower?”

    Noise-Maker waved in the affirmative and did so.

    Katy stopped, then started again, much slower: “Noise-Maker, where is our child? Why are we talking to you in a Navigator’s sphere? What have the humans done to our bodies? Why are we not in the Deep?” Katy’s eyes started leaking tears as she began to repeat the questions.

    “I do not know!” said Noise-Maker. “Travels-Far, I do not know what happened! I have humans helping me. We will find out what happened to you!” They turned to me, looking desperate, not knowing what else to say or do.

    I returned their gaze. “I will help you the best I can, but I can’t promise anything. I can help them move on, though. Do you have a deities we could call on to help?”

    They waved in the negative. “We go to the Deep, the darkness of space. Our bodies are just husks when we die, but they are not to be violated once the soul is gone. We liquefy the bodies and either we send the water into space, if we are on a ship, or give it back to the planet if we are home.” 

    I nodded. I’d heard of using water as an alternative to cremation, and a part of my mind was very curious about Noise-Maker’s people’s practices. You can get the details later, Liz, I told myself. I closed my eyes and looked again at the assembled Spirits in my mind’s eye. 

    “Hecate?” I asked, and the goddess moved closer until a bright flash stopped us. 

    “Wait!” interrupted Katy’s voice. “What’s going on? Is that me?”

    The light receded. I reached out a mental hand for Katy’s spirit and brought her closer to me. “You’re channeling the spirits of Noise-Maker’s dead relatives, Katy. We need to put you back in your body soon, but we have to send Noise-Maker’s partners on, first. Will you help me?”

    “Yes,” she said. “Of course!”

    “Hecate, I ask that you take Noise-Maker’s people to the Deep so their spirits can rest.”

    Hecate nodded under her cowl and lifted up Her torch. Instead of a flame at the top, there was the bright white light of a star. Noise-Maker’s family all turned towards it as if called by its light. Hecate lifted Her hand, and a rip in the spirit realm appeared, showing darkness lightly spangled with stars. One by one, the aliens moved towards the tear and disappeared, until only Travels-Far, the one who had been talking through Katy, was left. They approached Katy’s spirit, said something in their language, then, they, too, went into the darkness. Hecate disappeared, leaving only the Dagda and Papa Legba in the circle.

    “Time to go back, child,” Papa said to Katy. “You can’t stay here.”

    Katy stared at her body, then turned back to deities. “But…” 

    “You have much more to do in the world, Katy. You are the messenger, and you are needed,” said the Dagda. “If you stay in this realm, you will die. The body can’t live without it’s soul for too long.”

    “I guess so. But it’s so beautiful here!” she replied.

    “I know, lass, but time to go!” The Dagda blew a mighty wind, and suddenly I was flat on my back on the dirt, staring up at the stars through the trees.

    “Elizabeth! Katy!” I hear Noise-Maker say. I felt something on my shoulder, then I saw Noise-Maker’s eye above me, sparkling in the fire light. “Are you well?”

    I sat up slowly and took stock of my body. The normal aches and pains were there, but nothing out of the ordinary. I’ll probably feel it more in the morning, I grumbled to myself. My head felt a full, but that was normal after such an intense spiritual working. “I’m fine, Noise-Maker.” 

    “Katy fell over, too,” they said. “It was strange. When you closed your eyes you went very still. I tried to wake you for many of your minutes, but you wouldn’t move. Then, suddenly you were pushed away from each other.”

    “Yes. Well, that hasn’t happened to me in a circle in a very long time.” I took a breath. I looked across the circle to see Katy on laying on the ground, unmoving. “Help me over to Katy,” I said.

    Noise-Maker waved in the affirmative, then let me use their appendage to steady myself. The noises of the forest were loud again, and I realized that not only had the Dadga sent us back, he’d taken down the circle, too. That’s a first, I thought as we reached the girl. 

    I sat myself next to Katy and took her hand in mine. “Katy?” I said in a soothing tone, while pulling her back with my mental hand that still held onto her spirit. “it’s time to come back now.”

    The girl’s eyes fluttered for a moment, then opened. She sat up, and looked around, staring wide eyed. After a few seconds her eyes focused on me. “Oh. Hello.”

    “What’s your name?” I demanded.

    “My name?”

    “What. Is. Your. Name?” I demanded again.

    She blinked a few times and said, “Katy?”

    “I don’t believe you. Tell me your name.”

    “Katy.”

    “Katy what?”

    Katy shook her head. “Katy… um… Anderson?”

    “One more time: Tell me your name!” I said, louder.

    Katy flinched as if I’d slapped her, then said, “Katy Lynn Anderson! Jeez, Liz, you don’t have to yell!”

    I breathed a sigh of relief and let go of her hand. “Thank the Gods!”

    Katy’s face scanned the Shrine in confusion. “What happened? I remember you casting the circle, then dumping my hair in the fire, but after that it’s all fuzzy…”

    “That’s normal after channeling a spirit, Katy. But let’s finish up here before we talk about it.” I turned to Noise-Maker, remembering what they’d said earlier in the day. “Wasn’t there something you wanted to do?”

    “Oh! Yes!” they said. They turned their body and grabbed onto the end of their tail. The tail had three talons on it, one on the end and two to either side. Noise-Maker brought the one on the end to their mouth and bit down, taking off the talon. To my surprise, no blood appeared, the talon just seemed to fall off. They grasped it in their appendage and held it out to Katy. “My people don’t adopt other’s children very often, since rejecting a child is unthinkable to us, but from time to time when a child’s parental group has died, or a child’s parents are too ill or maimed to take care of their children, they are adopted into another parental group. It is customary for the leader of the parental group that takes the child in to give them one of their tail talons to wear as a symbol of their commitment to protect and care for them. I no longer have my family. And you no longer have your family. I would like to protect you, Katy. You should not be without family.”

    Tears streamed down Katy’s face. “You mean it? I mean, what about when you leave Earth?”

    Noise-Maker thought for a moment. “If I am able to leave, I would demand that the Elders allow you to come with me.”

    Katy nodded, reached up, and took the talon. She stared at the talon in her hands for a moment. “I remember now… when I came back and saw them all… Travels-Far told me to accept this. How did I know that?” She looked up at me for an explanation.

    I put up a hand. “Let’s put out the fire and the candles and go back to the cottage. We both need to get some protein in us before we go to bed, or we’ll feel horrid in the morning. Here,” I said. I crawled over to my basket, dug out a chocolate candy, and handed it to Katy. “Have this. One thing that some of the fantasy stories about magic always got right is that chocolate helps a lot after doing intense magical work.” I pulled another candy out, unwrapped it, and ate it. Katy stared at the candy for a moment, still looking confused, but then, she, too, unwrapped and ate it. 

    “I will put out the candles,” said Noise-Maker, standing up.

    “Thank you.” I took a good look at the central fire, and saw that it had become mostly coals. “The fire is low enough that we can leave it to burn itself out. Katy, can you get the lantern?”

    “Yup!” she said, springing to her feet, suddenly full of energy. I grinned. She’ll fall flat after we get back to the house and eat something. Amazing, though, that she has that kind of talent and power! I waited with the basket as the other two moved around. I didn’t trust myself to move very fast, as I was exhausted. I figured I had just enough energy to get back to the cottage, make a couple of sandwiches, and ensure that Katy was all right before falling into bed. 

    “Are you ok, Liz?” the girl said, holding the lantern carefully as she helped me up. 

    “I’ll be all right, especially after we have something to eat. That working was much more intense than I thought it would be.”

    “We will help you, friend Elizabeth,” Noise-Maker said, taking my other arm. 

    “Oh, well, uh, you don’t have to–”

    “We will help you,” said Katy, firmly, sounding much older than she really was. 

    “All right! Ok! Fine!” I said, surrendering. Katy lifted the lantern and we made our way slowly back to the cottage.

  • The Hermit: Dreams and Revelations

    The tree towered above her. She looked up into the branches and could hear the Crows chattering among themselves. I always start here, she thought. 

    “Of course you start here,” said a deep rumbling voice behind her. Liz turned around to see a large, red-headed, bearded man with a big pot belly leaning casually on a staff. “Where else would you start, darlin’ but at the Tree of Life?”

    Liz sighed. “I suppose you’re right. It’s where I first met you, after all. It’s where I met all of you, really.”

    “You sound like you’re at a funeral! Why are you so sad?” the Dagda asked.

    Liz scoffed. “Sad? Oh no! Not sad. I’m resigned to You and all of Your interference in my life! First time you sent me students, half of them left and half of them died in the City-State Wars. The next time you sent me a student, it got… complicated, and they left. After that I said I wanted no more students, and now you bring me these two?!” She threw up her hands. “I’ve just resigned myself to being broken hearted and alone! What’ll it be with these two, huh? Is the city-state going to come and take them in the night?” Liz stood directly in front of the large God and said, pointing to herself, “I can’t fight them on my own! I’m an old woman with a bad back and bad knees! I don’t even know if I can keep them out of sight long enough for… I don’t know what for! If You’ve got some grand plan in that God-head of Yours about all this, could you maybe clue me in this time? I don’t know if I can deal with vague prophecies and riddles right now!”

    The Dagda looked down at her with His kind eyes and smiled, making her feel as if she was resting under a tree on a warm Summer’s day. “You know that’s not how it works, lass,” He said. “You are, however, at the right place at the right time. And you will be able to protect both of them. You are stronger than you think you are, even as an old woman.” 

    “No I’m not! I’m old and decrepit and not worth–”

    The Dagda put a finger to her lips. “Do not say you aren’t worthy or worth Our time.” His voice was calm, but the hair on the back of her neck stood up. This time his eyes were still as water on a Winter’s day. Liz flinched at the rebuke and nodded. “Better,” He said, and His eyes changed to sun dancing on water and He removed His hand. She breathed a sigh of relief. 

    “Now, learn from your alien friend, and teach the young girl. Your time is short, but you will have the time you need.” He smiled, then walked away over the plains into a forest in the northwest that hadn’t been there earlier. Of course He’d go His own way, Liz thought, shaking her head. 

    A chuckle came from behind her. She turned, and Papa Legba was smiling under His black, wide-brimmed hat, holding His cane in front of Him. “I opened the way for them on our world. They’re very confused Spirits, but you’ll be able to handle it.”

    “Opened the way for who?”

    Papa grinned, then disappeared in a puff of cigar smoke. “Fucking hell!” Liz exclaimed. “Deities!”

    Yet another person laughed behind her. “You really don’t like being out of control, do you?”

    “What?”

    Before she could turn to see who had spoken, a man was before her, dressed in a tunic and cloak, holding a staff with two intertwined snakes. He shifted between looking like a middle-aged man and a young man and had a warm, amused smile. Liz was getting annoyed with all the supernatural attention, and a part of her wished that Noise-Maker had crashed in someone else’s field. The god laughed again. “You really have been set in your ways for a very long time! Have no worries, agapiti, things are going to change. You’ll need to just flow with it. Besides, you have Me! Now, stand still.”

    “What?” Liz said again, as He touched her head with His staff. The world exploded in shapes and numbers, none of which she could understand. The world disappeared from under her and suddenly she was falling…

    “Fuck!” I breathed as I spread out my arms and legs on the bed trying go catch myself, even though I knew it was useless. My eyes popped open and I was breathing hard. “Son of a bitch! I hate falling dreams!” I stayed still for a moment, reassuring my body that I was just in my bed and I didn’t fall from the sky or something. I counted my breaths for a minute or two to calm myself, as I listened to the the low murmur of conversation outside my bedroom door. That’s what you get for praying before a nap, Liz, I thought to myself. But what did that dream mean? And just what did Hermes put in my head? 

    It wasn’t completely dark yet, but I could tell that it was close to twilight. I got up, went into the bathroom, splashed my face with cold water, then took a long look at myself in the mirror. The lines around my face were deeper and my short hair was now fully dark gray. “You’re way too old for this shit,” I said to my reflection. 

    Laughter rang in my head, and my image changed in the mirror to a much older and wrinkled woman. The light around Her face darkened like a cloak. I was frozen in place as She thundered in my head, Think you too old to act, child? Think you too old to influence a young child and a being who needs your help? I am as old as the Earth and older and yet I can still act. You are far from useless. You have intelligence and you have wisdom. You have power and you have US. Act, Daughter! There is no room for doubt! Just as suddenly as Hecate appeared, she left my mind and vision, making me stumble backwards enough that I had to catch myself with the edge of the sink. 

    “Fuck!” I whispered. It’d been a long time since a Spirit had scolded me like that. I took more deep breaths to steady myself. “Damn.” I was shocked, but my heart knew She was right. Katy and Noise-Maker had come to me. I had made vows and I had a brain in my head. Had I become so much of a hermit that I’d forgotten who I really was? I shook my head to clear it. “You’re a witch, Liz. It’s time you used your knowledge to figure things out!” I said out loud, hoping that I could actually believe it. I pretended to, at least. I washed my face again, took another breath, then went out to the living room. 

    Katy was sitting on the couch near Noise-Maker. She looked thoughtful for a moment, then said something to Noise-Maker, making a distinct clicking sound at the end. Noise-Maker hiss-laughed, then said through the translator, “Yes, better this time. Acceptable!”

    Katy smiled wide and clapped her hands. “Yes! I did it! Liz! I figured out how to say Noise-Maker’s name!”

    “You did?” I said, surprised. “That’s amazing!”

    “It is the diminutive form of my name, but Katy’s attempt was as accurate as a human can make it,” they clarified. “It is acceptable enough to be respectful.”

    Katy beamed, which looked cute and ridiculous with her head still wrapped in tinfoil. I grinned and said, “I’m really impressed!”

    “Thanks!” she replied. “So, uh, Liz, can I wash this stuff off now? It really stinks!”

    I nodded. “Sure. Use the hose on the rainwater tank outside to rinse the solids off, then you should take a shower to get the last of it out.” Katy jumped off the couch and ran for the back door. “Put the foil in the recycling!” I yelled after her.

    “Ok!” she yelled back. I stood, staring at the door, thinking.

    Noise-Maker made a quiet clicking sound. “You are worried?”

    I nodded. “Yes. The ritual we’re going to do later is no guarantee of safety, Noise-Maker. I can do some magick to protect us for a while, but I can’t keep the world out forever. We’ll need to figure out some way to contact your people.”

    They were quiet for a long moment, then said, “I understand, Elizabeth. I, too, wish to contact my people. I have technical expertise, but all the tools I could use were on the ship that was taken. I did not think to bring tools when I escaped the ship.” 

    I turned to them. They had lowered their upper limbs and bowed their head. It was then that I really got a good look at what I thought of as their hands and realized that there would be no way they could manipulate human tools. The ends of their limbs had three short appendages that would let them grab things, but in reality, the appendages were closer to thin, flexible lobster claws than fingers. 

    “How did you create your ships?” I asked.

    “Initially, when we created electronics and computers, we had created tools to do delicate work that would fit in our appendages. Later, we developed robotics and artificial intelligence to create them for us. The intelligence, especially, allowed us to make materials and components we couldn’t make with our own hands, such as our ships. It is why we created the translator and incorporated it into our suits and other equipment. We can design in our minds,  store that data in our minds, then through the translators we create, since our language is based in mathematics.”

    My eyes went wide. “Hold on, you mean that little machine can do more than just translate for you?”

    “Yes.”

    I smiled. “So, if I tell you what I’d be able to find as far as components, then you could come up with a design for an antenna or something?”

    “It might be possible,” they said. “I don’t know how I would work on the components, however.” They held up their limbs.

    “I know a bit about electronics. I’m no expert, but I’m handy with things like radios and antennas. I could be your hands. We’ll talk more about it tomorrow. Tonight we should focus on the protection ritual.”

    “Yes.” Noise-Maker stared at me in a way that meant they were wanting to ask a question. 

    “Out with it, Noise-Maker,” I said.

    “My [untranslatable]. They were on the ship. They are all dead, Elizabeth.” They put their claws together, seeming uncertain. “I am… alone.”

    “Your family?” I went over to the couch and sat near Noise-Maker, putting a hand on their limb. 

    They waved in the affirmative. “Yes. That is a suitable word. Reproductive grouping.”

    “Your mates? Partners? Are you sure they’re dead? Is it possible any of them could be alive? I’m not sure how we’d rescue them from the city-state, but…”

    They waved a limb and tapped their head. “I know.”

    “Oh,” I said, weakly. “I’m sorry.”

    They waved in the negative, as if waving away my sympathy. “I have my memories, even though the bond has been severed. But it means that I am without children now.” 

    I felt my face pale. “You had children on your ship, too?”

    “Yes. We send family groups on long term assignments.” They bowed their head again. “But I would ask you more about this ritual.”

    “Oh. Yes. Of course.” I wanted to know more about what happened on the ship, but I wasn’t going pressure them to do so, since it seemed they were reluctant to talk about it.

    “I would like to… adopt… Katy as my child. I do not like that her caretakers want to force her into premature mating. It is wrong. I would never do such a thing. I want to protect her. Is this something I can proclaim in this ritual?”

    I blinked. “Well, yes. There’s nothing saying we can’t do that, too, as long as Katy agrees to it. Consent is important to most humans. The basics of the ritual, like casting a circle and calling in the Spirits, is usually just a wrapper for whatever you need to do.” Noise-Maker seemed to not understand, so I tried a different explanation. “Um, well, you see, we kind of build a temporary spiritual enclosure around us. The ritual to build that is generic. Like the walls of this house. The walls are like any other house in the town, but what we do inside, or how we decorate the inside, is different from house to house. So, in the ritual, we can have more than one purpose. Does that make sense?”

    They were thoughtful for a long moment. “You create a circle?” 

    “Well, sort of. It’s more like a sphere, to be honest, since we mark out above and below, too.” 

    They raised their head in surprise. “You make spheres like the Navigators?”

    “Navigators?”

    They waved in the affirmative. “Yes! Navigators must create a sphere in their head of the Universe in order to do accurate drive calculations. I am not the expert Navigator that my partner was, but all of us learn how, in case of need. I will show you! The basics of it should be understandable to you.”

    “Noise-Maker is going to show you how to do something?” Katy said, walking into the living room with bits of coffee grounds stuck in her now reddish-brown hair and the dirty towel around her shoulders.

    “Apparently it’s like how I make a magick circle,” I replied. “Go take your shower, Katy, then we’ll make dinner.”

    Katy pouted about being left out, but did as she was told. 

    Noise-Maker hiss-laughed. “It seems our children are not much different.”

    “Really?”

    “Yes.” They arranged their lower legs in loaf position, and pointed at a spot on the floor. “Visualize that this is center of our galaxy. It’s designated coordinates are 0,0,0 and is the center of the sphere that is the boundary of our own galactic understanding. Within this sphere are multitudes of smaller spheres: for navigation purposes, it is our ship, but planets, and even people, have their own spheres within the Universe. Visualize your own sphere as separate from the sphere of the galaxy…” 

    As Noise-Maker guided me through the Navigation mathematics, I could feel another part of my mind latch on to the imagery, give it human terms, and set my own magickal circle imagery within it. For once in my life, understanding came quickly. I knew, then, what Hermes had given me and I also knew that Hecate was right. I was not some useless old lady. I was a priest who could share her own wisdom and still learn new things. I had power. 

  • The Hermit: Preparations

    I cut off the braid in Katy’s hair just above the hair tie then held out the braid for her, and Noise-Maker, to see. Katy burst into tears.

    “Why is there water on your face?” the alien asked, concerned. 

    “It’s called tears.” Katy shook her head. “And I don’t know. I didn’t think I’d be sad about cutting it! I mean, it’s the law in the city-state that girls can’t cut their hair and we couldn’t wear it unbraided until we were married.” She wiped her eyes. “I should be happy, right? I mean, I’ve  wanted to cut it for forever!”

    I put the braid in a bowl on the kitchen table. “I’m not surprised that it’s emotional for you. This hair was part of your identity in the city-state, and while you’ve hated it, it was still a part of you. You’ve had this hair for sixteen years.”

    “Yeah, I suppose you’re right,” she replied, sniffling. “That makes a lot of sense.”

    Noise-Maker titled their head. “You are sad, then?”

    Katy shrugged. “I don’t know, Noise-Maker. My feelings are all mixed up.”

    Noise-Maker waved in the affirmative, then continued watching quietly as I finished trimming Katy’s hair. They seemed utterly fascinated by the process. I finished making her hair look as good as I was able to, then picked up a second bowl that had a paste of coffee grounds and sage, I plopped some of the mixture onto her head, working it into her hair until her head was covered in the stuff. I wrapped her head in tinfoil and, after washing my hands, I added a towel over it.

    “Ugh. That’s stinks!” Katy exclaimed. “Do you think it’ll work?”

    I shrugged, putting the bowl in the sink. “It should at least make your hair a shade or two darker. It’s not a proper dye, though, so we’ll have to keep refreshing it.”

    “How long do I keep this on?” she said.

    “About four hours. Longer if you can stand it.”

    Noise-Maker cocked his head. “Why must you change the color of your fur?”

    “Hair,” Katy corrected. “Well, you see, my hair color, which people call red or ginger, isn’t very common among humans, so it makes me stand out more. Cutting it and making it darker will help make me less recognizable.”

    “It’s also helpful that Katy looks more like a male human now than female,” I added. “The less she looks like her old self, the better.” I gave the girl a look. “I still won’t take you into town, though.”

    Katy frowned. She’d tried to argue about it earlier, but I reminded just how much danger she was in herself. I also made it clear just how much danger she would put me and Noise-Maker in.  “I know. You’re right, Liz. I suppose part of me wanted to see the town again since it’s been so long. But yeah, I’d rather not get caught.” Katy let out a loud sigh, stood up, and went into the living room. Noise-Maker followed her. 

    I shook my head and started to do the dishes as I listened to Katy and Noise-Maker talk. Katy seemed to have a real knack of explaining human behavior to Noise-Maker, and it seemed to keep her from thinking too much about the city-state. Noise-Maker asked her a lot of questions and took her answers seriously. They never talked down to her. It made me wonder if that’s how they treated their own children. 

    “Is it uncomfortable?” they asked.

    “No. It just feels weird. Not slimy, or anything. Goopy, I guess.”

    “Goopy?”

    There was a long pause. “Well, it’s as if I have mud on my head. It’s kind of heavy, a bit cold, and rough on my skin. Kind of like having a bunch of muddy hands all over my head.”

    I raised my eyebrows and grinned as I dumped the coffee and sage mixture into the compost bucket. It wasn’t a horrible explanation of the term. 

    “Ah. I understand. And this goopy material will protect you from those who would come after you?”

    “Not completely,” she replied. “It’s like Liz said. The less I look like my old self, the better. With short, darker hair, I won’t entirely match the pictures they’ll put out of me. It’s why Liz won’t take me to town when she has to go and get supplies. The disguise will only really work from a distance. We’ll have to figure something else out eventually, but for now, this should be ok. I’ll look like a new farmhand if anyone sees me in the yard.”

    “Maybe I should come up with a disguise as well,” said Noise-Maker.

    “Hmmm… I don’t know what we could do for you, though. You’re too short lengthwise for a horse or a cow. Too thin, too. I suppose if we made a head, we could go with alpaca, but even that would only be good at a distance. I suppose if you crouched down and pulled all your legs in, you could pass as a weirdly shaped rock. We could even dig some moss and dirt to put on you. That wouldn’t let you be mobile, but it’s not a bad idea if someone comes here to poke around.” I tried not to laugh at the idea of Noise-Maker with a sewn-together alpaca head attached to them like a hat. They weren’t horrible ideas, but Katy was right. Disguises for either of them would only work at a distance, and probably not very well. I finished the dishes, dried my hands, grabbed my mug of coffee, and went into the living room to join the other two.

    “Yes, that would be rather humorous,” Noise-Maker said. “I could stay still as a rock, however. For many days, if necessary.”

    Katy looked surprised. “Really? How? I mean, how can you stay so still? It’s really hard for me to do that!”

    “The explanation is complicated. I am not sure if our methods would work for a human,” they replied, then turned their head to me. “Do you have methods of sitting still?”

    I nodded. “Yes. We call it meditation. There are many methods and schools of meditation. There are some where you sit still, and some that you can do while walking or even dancing. Some may include saying sacred phrases or scripture in a particular sequence. There are even some that are done through singing and telling stories.” 

    Noise-Maker thought for a long moment then said, “Yes, meditation is a good descriptor. It is part of our training as a youngling and the basis of how we store information. We use mathematical models to create data storage places in our minds. I am not sure if the translator can interpret the concepts correctly.”

    Katy looked disappointed, but I said, “Well, it may not exactly be like what you teach your children, but there are forms of meditation for humans that use numbers and math, and some of the more complex are actually for memory retrieval. The one I’ve found helpful is part of the basics of Zen Buddhism, and it’s not difficult. You count your breaths only using the numbers one through ten, since everyone can count from one to ten without really having to think about it. Or, well, that’s how it was explained to me.”

    Noise-Maker tilted their head. “I would like to learn this counting-breaths,” they said.

    “Me too!” said Katy, sitting forward on the part of the couch that Noise-Maker wasn’t leaning on.

    “All right, I’ll teach you,” I said. “It’ll be useful for later, since we might as well do a ritual with the hair we cut off today.”

    “Ritual?” asked Noise-Maker.

    I nodded. “A ritual of protection. And since I doubt I could keep either of you away from the Shrine if I go by myself, we’ll do it together. Unless… Noise Maker, do your people have any prohibitions on magic or metaphysical, uh, things?” 

    The translator finished, and Noise-Maker stared at me for a long moment. “What is magic?”

    Both of them stared at me expectantly, but in my head I was freaking out. Shit! Shit! Shit! I thought. I haven’t taught anyone these things since– I took a deep breath and let it out. All right, Liz, you have taught this before. You’re just a little rusty. “Well… uh… magic. Right. I suppose, academically, you could say it’s any act that moves energy or spirit in a particular way for a particular outcome.” I frowned. Katy looked confused and Noise-Maker still just stared. “Damn. Ok. So, when I do a magickal ritual, I am pushing on the energy of the universe, nudging it a little so it will go in a direction that I want it to. It doesn’t always work well, and not everyone thinks that this energy is a real thing, but then again, most of the time, magick is more of a plea to the the Gods, Ancestors, and Spirits that I pray to just to get some help. It’s not like it is in the movies where you can move stuff around with a thought. It’s much simpler things that can happen, like the right person coming with just the right thing when you need it most.” 

    Katy still looked confused, but Noise-Maker seemed to be thinking hard. They shifted into what I’d started think of as their thinking position, which made them look more like a cat going in loaf position. More so now that I’d taken off the bandage earlier in the day when they assured me that their leg had healed and could move their leg again. I was skeptical until the wrap came off and the leg looked the same green-gray as their head instead of gray-yellow-green.

    “What are you doing, Noise-Maker?” asked Katy, bringing me back to the present.

    They adjusted themselves a little bit more, then said, “I am accessing my knowledge in order to find the best explanation of my people’s spiritual beliefs. Friend-Elizabeth’s explanation of what magic is lit up a data node, and I will need some time to analyze the mathematics.”

    Surprised, I just nodded, yawned, and said, “Um, sure. We can’t do the ritual until later in the evening anyway, since we don’t want the neighbors seeing anything. I think I want a nap, myself, since we’ll be up late.”

    “What about the Zen meditation?” Katy asked.

    “Oh, right. The technique itself isn’t that difficult. First, you sit in a comfortable positon. There is a special position to sit in, traditionally, but my old knees can’t do it, so I usually sit in a chair.” I sat back and put my hands on my knees. Katy crossed her legs under her and sat up straight. “Good. Now close your eyes, breathe, and count each exhale and inhale. In is one, out is two, and so on until you reach ten, then you start over with one. After you get used to that, you’re supposed to just count one full breath, inhale and exhale, as one. The counting is supposed to focus you on your breathing, although, you’ll have lot of thoughts in your head wander that will in and out. Or you’ll forget and count past ten. If that happens, you just start over. From what I understand, the goal is to eventually not have to count at all. I’ve never gotten to that point, though. But I find counting breaths a good way to calm myself when I’m stressed.”

    Katy looked dubious. “That’s it? That’s all you do?”

    I shrugged. “That’s it. It’s easy to do, but can be hard to keep it up for a long period of time. Why don’t you try it while I take a nap? If you get bored later, you can always peel some potatoes for dinner. Just make sure you put them in water so they don’t go brown.”

    Katy stuck her tongue out at me. “Fine!” she said, but repositioned herself and closed her eyes. Noise-Maker hiss-laughed, then they, too, settled down. 

    I laughed, went into my bedroom, and closed the door, glad for some quiet time alone. The last three days had been the most hectic I’d had in a very long time. I layed down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Gods, I thought, I don’t know how things are going to go with all of this, but please just let us survive somehow! It wasn’t the best spell in the world, and it wouldn’t be as powerful as the spell we’d do later, but I really hoped the Gods were listening.